Frustrated...

I knew these feelings would eventually come up. The frustration and angst and sadness that is having a long distance relationship with someone. He's the perfect guy for me, and I couldn't wish for anyone better. He never leaves my thoughts. He makes me feel so special and happy and I want to be with him 24/7. Sadly with a long distance relationship comes...well the distance part. He's in Mexico, I'm in America. Now I'd say that where in those countries, we're pretty close compared to others, just not close enough to see each other more then we'd wish to. In fact, I've only been with him face to face for about....18 days in the 3 years I've known him, 2 of those years being a couple. To finally wake up and see the real reality of the situation and realize the a relationship like this takes a long long time to fully become ideal. I want to be able to spend every waking moment with him from morning, noon, and night.  Nothing could make me happier then that. Cept sadly, since that isn't happening anytime soon, I'm left feeling depressed. I feel this way which makes time feel even slower til I see him this December. The happiness will return then til we part ways once more. I don't know if he cries himself to sleep as much as I do, or tries to actually do some unnecessary praying or wishing that we could be each other now instead of later, but yeah I do all those things. I'm sure if I had the right support by my own family and stuff, I could get through the waiting a little better, but sadly I don't have alot of that. My life has been nothing but an outrageous roller coaster that breaks down quite often and I know with him things can get oh so much better. I just wish I knew of a way to take my mind off the fact it'll be long process before we're together. Makes me wish I was rich so I can see him whenever I wanted to. Makes me wish it was easy for me or him to immigrate to each others country too. If anyone actually stumbles upon this and reads it, I hope maybe someone can comfort me and give me ideas as to not be so depressed and utterly impatient with this situation of mine.....